On December 1st, Raybras and I broke up. We came to realize that our relationship wasn't going anywhere and nothing was changing. So, when we talked on Sunday we mutually agreed to end it.
Even though I rather saw this coming, I'm still taking it fairly hard. I spent a good while afterwards crying.... and did some yesterday, and a bit today.
It doesn't help that I still love him. And from what he told me, he still loves me. But I'm going to have to get through it.
We've agreed to stay friends though.
We started dating on June 1st, 2008. We met the Saturday of Anime North that year, and I met him thanks to being friends with his older sister. We were so happy to have each other, someone to hold and to love.
In the time we've been together we've done a few cosplays together, gone to some conventions, and entered two masquerades together. I've made him props and a costume, and given him so much of my love. On his side while he never made me anything, he gave me all the love he could and we worked to make the distance ok.
But, over the last year we've grown apart, and things got in the way. We saw each other less and less, and talked less as well. We were to a point that we had nothing to talk about when we were on the phone, and didn't do much when together. And of course, when we'd go to a convention together........ we saw each other maybe 5% of the convention.
But of course, nothing lasts forever. And what's that saying? If you truly love something set them free?
Right now though.... I guess that love is strong enough that my heart feels like it's broken in two.